And the search continues - total rambling

As many of you know, Manly Half and I are both on the job hunt. Thankfully, we were not let go, but rather it is our own choice. I quit due to the lengthy commute and his job, well it just sucks!

So today, I got a call from a contractor and learned he had not chosen to hire me. Prior he seemed really interested. I talked to him on the phone twice for interviews, took a personality test, and gave him my references. From the get-go he was concerned about how soon I could start because of the relocation and I think that was the killer. Still, I can't help but ponder why....Did I fail the personality test? Was it something I said? Why can't I get a job? This is the second time in a row that I have come up as the #2 candidate. Which the manly half so nicely reminded me tonight... "#2 is the first loser"...Butthole!

Then I reflect on my past jobs. I have been extremely fortunate in the positions I have held. I used to work for an ambulance manufacturer on their sales team. They were even going to let me telecommute, but I decided to become a stay at home mom. That was back in 2002. If I was still there I would be making $$$ now. My last job which I loved, was for community association property management. I was the portfolio manager's assistant. I was in the process of training to be a portfolio manager by the end of this year. However, the commute was actually costing us money. Money that we do not currently have. So another career I threw away.

I am hoping to find another property management job,but this time I am not going to settle for the first company that offers me a job. I want to stay somewhere and grow within the company. I am exhausted from the job hunting and relocations. I want to be settled and raise my family where they can develop life long friendships. That said, I don't care where my family relocates too, but this will be the last move for quite some time.